So I broke up with Gera, who I had been dating for almost a year. I let him borrow The Power of Myth, and gave him a grapefruit on his way out the door. We talked as long as we needed to before it was apparent he was supposed to leave, "I'm afraid," He said. We agreed that we should work on ourselves for a while, and then talk. I don't want to feel like he's waiting for my call; I want him to get going on his health care and school schedule and apply for scholarships. He needs to help his brother get back into school. We can maybe reevaluate what's realistic for our future once we have some time.
For the first time in almost six years, I didn't invite another boy over after my break up. Since I graduated high school I've been in a relationship: from Michael to Edo to Gera. Gera and I would have been dating a year next month, but the thought frightened me; I've had no real alone time at all since I literally became a legal adult. It's time to do things for myself. I'm so tired of depending on a man to reaffirm that I'm an interesting person. I know that I'm loveable and capable of getting into another such relationship in the future. Maybe it's with Gera--I just need time.
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